F Everything

The 'F' above stands for 'Fabulous', so I guess the reference's pretty obvious. I feel like doing the tag in Phil's blog, since I am idle (though I still have homework to do).

RANDOM FACTS :
001. Real name: Wilson Liew Shan Shung

002. Nicknames: Bum (pronounced 'boom'), Will, Williew, Kuma, Teddie, Western, Ken, Ginta, SS, Shotgun, WS, Wils.

003. Married: Nope
004. Zodiac sign: Scorpio
005. Male or female: Male
006. Age: 14. 15 in October.
007. High school: Lodge Secondary School
008. College: Not too sure yet.
009. Residence: Bau
010. Hair color: Black, but I intend to dye it salt-n-pepper in the distant future.
011. Long or short hair: Short
012. Smoke: Negative
013. Drink: Nuggah
014. Available: Rarely
015. Are you a health freak: Not really

016. Weight : Obese, I'm sure
017. Do you have a crush?: Since 2nd grade
018. Do you like yourself: I think
019. Piercings: Nope
020. Tattoos: I think it would be too painful for me
021. Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRST:
022. First surgery: N/A

023: First piercing: N/A
024. First best friend/s: I scale friendship harshly. I think my first's Chai Ming Xi, that's when I was in ... 3rd grade.
025. First award: I dunno. Slipped my memory, I guess.
026. First memory: I got lost in Satok.
027. First pet: A virtual pet in a tamagotchi. It's dead.
028. First vacation: To ... um ... either Singapore or Indonesia, methinks.
029. First concert: 2007

030. First crush: 2002

LAST:
031. Last time you went out: Eons ago

032. Last time you had a good time: This morning (3 a.m.) when my Cyrille and Gadfort finally won a vicious and unforgiving defensive battle in Shining Force EXA.

033. Last time you cried: December '08

034. Last award: English Essay Writing Competition '07 - Champ

035. Last trip abroad: To Jakarta

036. Last concert: 2007, a Taiwanese concert. I got pulled along to be exact.

037. Last album you bought: Never bought any albums and never will.

039. Last phone call: 2 days ago
040. Last laugh: Last night

PICK ONE:
041. Summer or winter: Winter
042. Rainy or sunny: Rainy
043. Britney or Christina: Britney
044. TV or YouTube: Depends. I like TV for reality shows and soaps, YouTube for gameplay vids and anime.

045. Oprah or Tyra: No comment, dood.
046. McD’s or KFC: KFC! It's so fab, it even spawned rip-offs like CFC (California Fried Chicken), SFC (Safari Fried Chicken) etc.
047. Soccer or tennis: Tennis - it's kinda akin to badminton.
048. New York or San Francisco: The Big Apple, fo sho!

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating: Dinner
050. Drinking: Water
051. Wearing: Pajamas with blue-white stripes
052. I'm about to: Watch TV
053. Listening to: Leah - Calling

FAVORITES :
054. Food: I like both Eastern and Western in general, lollipops for candy.
055. Drinks: Black coffee
056. Colors: Blue, yellow, white and black.
057. Numbers: Any even number except those with 0 or 8.

YOUR FUTURE :
058. Want kids: Sure.
059. Want to get married: Well, I guess.
060. Life: One with a happy family and career.
061. Goals: To ... um ... I dunno, score the Nobel Prize for Literature?
062. Where will you live: Perhaps still in Malaysia, but I'd go for any other country I show interest in.
063. Buy a house: Maybe.
064. Buy a car: I'm positive. I want mine so sexy, it is sex itself.

YOUR PARENTS :
066. Love your mom?: Very.
067. Love your dad?: Uh ...
Are they still together?: Weirdly, yes.

WHICH IS BETTER?:
068. Lips or eyes: Eyes
069. Hugs or kisses: Either
070. Shorter or Taller: No comment.
071. Lean or plump: On the fence.
072. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic, fo sho!
073. Nice stomach or nice arms: Arms?
074. Sensitive or loud: Former.
075. Hook-ups or relationships: Latter.

HAVE YOU EVER :
076. Bungee-jumped: Nope.
077. Shook hands with someone important: Yup ... I think his name was Dr Tiki Lafe?
078. Kissed a stranger: Yup. Well ... if you count a teacher as a stranger, than yes. I mean, students never really know teachers so much.
079. Drank bubbles: Those in fizzy drinks? Yup.
080. Lost glasses/contacts: Don't have either.
081. Ran away from home: Thought about it.
082. Liked someone younger: Iie.
083. Older: Bingo!
084. Broken someone’s heart: Beats me.
085. Been arrested: Don't think so.
086. Turned someone down: Turned down invitations to social gatherings many times. I mean, most of the time.
087. Cried when someone died: Not yet.
088. Liked a friend: Fo sho.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself: Yes.
090. Miracles: Most of the time.
091. Love at first sight: Think so.
092. Heaven: Yar.
093. Santa Claus: As I child, I did. Now even as a teen, I secretly believes that he exists.
094. Sex on the first date: If life's American Pie, yes.
095. The more you hate, the more you love: Okay ...
096. Angels: Yup.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
097. Is there one person you want to be with you right now?: Hai!
098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at a time?: Never did ...
099. Do you believe in God?: Never will.
100. Will you tag 10 people to continue this game: I'll think about it.

Methinks I will tag ...
1. A human.
2. A homo sapien.
3. A living thing.
4. A person.
5. Anything that's not androgynous.
6. A soul.
7. People.
8. Humanity.
9. Mankind.
10. Anyone.

Limpid Luster

My PS2 is no longer by my side (for now) ... but my DS is! I ain't very sure if I mentioned this on my blog yet, but in the holidays my aunt bought me a NDS Lite. Onyx color with crystal casing! I've been thinking of starting a separate blog that focuses on gaming soon, like MKBK that's for writing and books, so that I won't irritate non-gamers reading this blog. I love the Phoenix Wright series. But since Apollo Justice has now taken over, I think I'll just call the series Ace Attorney from now on. Yeah, it was the inspiration for the 'Anticonformity' post. Trauma Center is interesting at first, but it gets more insanely difficult by every surgery, and sometimes I feel like strangling Angie Thompson. I mean, she's the 
nurse, but she hardly helps! I hate her smirk! I hate her cynicism! She might as well be named Devie Thompson! 
I played the DS remake of FFIV. One word. Divine. FFIV was the first Final Fantasy I ever played, back on the PSX. It was what propelled me deep into the realms of RPG and Final Fantasy itself. It's my 3rd favorite FF, after IX and X. XII was very fun, but it's really hard to connect to the characters, especially Vaan and Penelo, who both have little to no role at all. Well, they did, in the direct sequel, Revenant Wings. The developers tossed Ashe and Basch aside instead. Well, I don't mind Basch being outcasted. But I love Ashe! My beloved Ashie-poo! Oops, off-topic. Anyways, playing FFIV again brings back a lot of memories, seriously. One couldn't 
imagine how much awe the opening instilled in me. Starting from the scene featuring Yang, man, the old IV theme plays once again! The graphics are lustrous. Totally. IV got just what it deserved. An awesome remake, that's what. It is also on the DS that I first played FFIII, completing my collection of all the numbered FFs, with the exception of XI, which is a MMORPG. Pokemon Diamond is excellent. It's been long since Emerald. But now that I think about it, maybe I should have waited for Platinum instead of buying Diamond. My main team consists of Pierre (my Prinplup), Asterysque (Staravia), Krycon (Kricketune), Murina (Murkrow), Donald (Psyduck) and Luxor (Luxio). For reserves I have a Zubat and a Ponyta. I think it's obvious why I have a Psyduck when I already have Prinplup who's more superior as a Water Pokemon. Well, I use Donald mainly for Psychic moves, and since he's a Water-type, he won't get hit by weaknesses Psychic-types would normally have, making him quite useful against certain Pokemons who counterbalance Psychic. Advance Wars: Days of Ruin serves as compensation for time being until Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon is released in the US. I like the change of mood and atmosphere from previous Advance Wars titles, and I definitely love the art. Now for the Top 2! The runner-up is ... Hotel Dusk: Room 215! The rotoscoping style proves more than superb, and the designs are win material. The plot itself's character-heavy, and I really like that. Actually, I've even imitated some of the characters' animations, especially Kyle's and Dunning's!

The champion's TWEWY, no doubt. I mean, The World Ends With You. It's a modern-day ARPG that combines the real and the surreal just like P3 and P4 (P3 especially, P4 takes more of the retro style) ... with the one difference that both the Persona titles aren't ARPGs. The soundtrack is kickass, and the cutting-edge character designs are just what expected from Tetsuya Nomura and Gen Kobayashi. Especially Nomura-sensei, whom I garner as the father of Kingdom Hearts. In a way. I mean, he is the director after all. Let's just say that TWEWY is awesome. The battle system (Stride Cross Battle System) is slick and fast-paced, contrary to the claim of many that combat is difficult to grasp for beginners. Now to reach the climax of CRPG, Square Enix and Atlus just have to combine elements of Persona and TWEWY together, and voila - a game where you can shop for threads, swags, food, do socializing and battle Shadows/Noise! Okay, I think I'm done with my gaming part.

Hmm, finally I got reprimanded for sleeping in class. It really is my first time. It's by Mr Danny. I am now actually wishing that teachers ARE reading my blog, because there's some explaining to be done. Okay, let's 
say I just have this something called the WCSD (Wilson's Chronic Slumberland Disease). No kidding. I contracted sometime during the first half of 2008, and it's still with me. I think there was a period of time last year during which I just worked my ass off and never got enough sleep for months starting then. Seriously, I've never slept in class the entire 7th grade. Before, I will only feel asleep when I'm at home doing homework. But this is starting to go a tad bit too far. I think. Now about every single day I am yawning continuously, even if I just got a fresh shower straight after waking up. My mind will, at random times, commence a 'shutdown' period while in school. It matters not if I'm having a class that I like or not. At school, my mind will reboot after about 15 
minutes. At tuition, it can take up to 30 minutes. Both of Sensei's guesses were horribly wrong. He wasn't boring, and I didn't pull and all-nighter the previous night either. It's something that seriously burdens me. Especially when I start feeling drowsy suddenly, there's no escaping slumber if it's a 2-period class. I tried taking mints, pinching myself, drinking water, washing my eyes, slapping myself and all that, but everything WOULDN'T work. It's a very agonizing process before the sleep. I need to try all my might to resist , just to be defeated. Again and again. During that 'shutdown' period, I will only respond to my name and no other word. 
To wake me up, either call me or just do it physically. Unless anyone does any of that, I will need to wait until my mind recovers. After rebooting, I will feel extremely refreshed - but the feeling will only last a few hours. Sometimes it's less than one. I don't want to sleep either, but I cannot stop the 'shutdown'. There is a way. You either present me with a test, an exam or let me walk around. But there's obviously no way am I going to abruptly shoot up in the middle of a lesson to start pacing around. Starting last year, I've also starting dozing off in tuition classes. I can't believe it even happened in Science tuition, since it's one of my favorite subjects. The shutdown isn't a totally sleeping either ... I'm just about 85% unconscious. I 
think I am able to see extremely obscured images and just that. I can also still feel slight wrath at my own failure in resisting. Sometimes I can move around for a few seconds, usually to pick up a pen that fell 
from my limp hand or something else. Anyways it's very tough for me. It even happens when I am doing things I LOVE, like gaming. Before 2008, I am almost always immediately revitalized when I get my hands on the controllers, but now when I grab hold of them I will instantly let out a heavy yawn. I hate it. I actually fall asleep while gaming now, can you believe it!? Even with a high volume turned on! But at home it's more manageable as I have plastic pegs to clip myself up with and ice packs to place on my body without any cover. At home I can also give myself slaps or punches at full blast, unlike at school. Thinking about either QQ or Willie DOES NOT help. At all. Both people motivate me a lot, but still can't help me out when WCSD strikes. So please pity me, dear teachers, and Edbert, please do wake me up. I appreciate 
you wanting to net me more rest but it can't be helped. No wonder Sharon said that my eyes are deep. I don't have no rings 'round my eyes, but they sure seem sunken alright. I'm a tired person. I've never really told my parents to get my dilemma diagnosed ... since if there's actually something wrong with me, my father'd blame it on my mom and curse non-stop about how she failed to take care of me. All that bull. When living with my father, DON'T GET SICK. Instead of sympathizing and caring for you, he'll scold you for getting sick. Oh, but when he's sick, be his caretaker, please. Whenever I get stuff like high fever or the likes, only my mother will stay by my side.

I still have so much to blog about, but it's like, real late, and I need my 4th shower for today before I go to bed (translation: read in bed).

Borderline Of Madness

Gah - school. Horrible day, I must admit. First things off, I mustered up the courage to greet a total stranger, just to receive cold shoulders in return. Hey, what's the deal? Oh, sure, I'm not cool enough to greet you, or something. Whatever, have it your way, and please don't hope me to be too friendly later in the year.

I tried to think of school as something fun. I even stayed behind in the canteen to chat even when I've finished my lunch. In return, a bunch of lowlives spilled sauce on me. Oh, great. Yeah, so I'm supposed to hold in everything, dipshits? All you can do is hand me a pack of tissues. Oh well, I never expect them to wash my clothes.
Lowlives will never understand because they are self-centered selfish brats who have washing machines. I can't get the stains off. Well, the lowlives are too rich for their own good they won't buy you back another set of uniform, so never expect compensation from the low and filthy. To add insult to injury, one of the lowlives managed to LAUGH, deary me! Oh my, isn't that funny? Well, it's as Naoki Konishi said - strangers'll be strangers. They'd be dying to see bad stuff 
happen. Only in this sense it should be 'lowlives'll be lowlives'.

I know I don't sound like how I usually do ... but! I am a shadow! The true self! And I know I just quoted that! But I'm just being true to myself ...
I'm sick of being some stress ball or an anger-absorbent thing. I'm tired of trying to be so nice when I'm being treated like shit. Persona 4's liberal in speech, why shouldn't I? Stop freakin' take advantage of me! What!?
Am I supposed to have limitless patience that I will never burst!? Well sorry, 'cos I ain't as great as you all suckers imagined! I'm also fed up with all my efforts underappreciated! The teacher asked something, so I 
answered because you all airheads don't know the answer! But just because I don't shout the answer, you can steal away my credit like it was nothing. And the deaf teachers. Excuse me!? I spent so much time with RPGs! Am I supposed to 
be one of the airheads who don't know the answer!? What, I'm an airhead of the same level!? It's as if all my strategizing in games were ridiculed at! Whoa, so, like, you have the right to say that school was bad for you later!? Heck yeah, you do. Finally, at home - my father! Without the freaking slightest bit of understanding, he started scolding me for being on the Internet. It's not like there's anything for me to study! I'm much much better than scum who watch porn on the net or those idiots who go out. I'm doing R-E-S-E-A-R-C-H, freak! That's right, people - here you see the REAL Wilson, who has accepted his true self - he hates
people, he hates his efforts being wasted, he loathes being misunderstood! His true feelings is that he's bitter about the world! What's so good about going to school!? You don't even feel secure! You get bullied like shit, it's much better staying home during the holidays! Edbert asked me how come constant gaming doesn't bore me. Of course it doesn't! It's so nice to feel the warmth within games! You don't know how much emotion I poured into them! They don't diss you. They don't take advantage of you. Trying to be nice to experience fun school days!? Screw that! They don't care if you're nice! In the end, I'm just ... a freaking disgusting lameass pig, okay!? I'm a stepping stone! A mere pawn! I ain't no Genie! Ain't no Room 215! In the end, the world will just leave me behind ...

Well ... I finally said it. I finally accepted my true self. It feels so refreshing. It's that one part inside me I've been rejecting so far, trying to keep to the opinion that I'm a 'good guy'. I'm no ... 'good guy'. I guess I really can do sincere good, but all the good I've done in the past ... were just to suppress my doubts of myself. I don't want ... to be a 'bad guy'. I think I'll let my heart be in charge from now on. Who cares about being nice? I really should've listened to Sharon's advice and retaliate to people taking taking advantage of me next time onwards. I mean, I ain't a tool. I'm a person.

I think ... I'm going to split for now. I was really working on my draft for this year's Commonwealth Essay Competition ... then I felt like I really needed to vent my anger ... holding up too much isn't very good for health.